alright this blog is gonna be emotional. know is been looooooong ever since my last blog, and is not a brillant idea to star of with such a blog. but i just wanna say to my dearest friends who are attached tat, appreciate for who yr partner is n dun ask for more. know is like very random of me to say this. but i really dun wan anyone of u guys to follow my foot steps. for once, lord was gracious enuff to send this angel to care n look after me, be there for my needs. however, yr smartest friend of yrs has neglected this wonderful gift from god n as a result of losing it. all these while, i have been thinking alot. thinking of whether to just let it go or just continue to wait. but each time as the msg beeps from my phone, i could sense the situation was beyond salvage. how i miss those times when we r slow in our pace of loving, talking about plans of building our future! knowing tat it will not happen again, but it feels like it had just happened yesterday. i wouldnt want to comment anything, as i felt tat i shd be deserving this and answer for my own actions and to understand this tat, once is gone, it will not be returning back to the good old days. for now, i have learnt to take back a step n hope for the best. know tat i cant have u again, but i just wanna let u know tat, nobody have ever treated me tat well before. u were the first n shall be the last. thanks bebe for putting in yr effort this far and have not fail to made me the most xin fu person. i have tasted love n shall remember the taste forever n ever... once again, i love u bebe!!! miss calling u bebe too!!! =) pardon me for being notty, unreasonable n etc... for now, i just hope to keep in touch with u n hear from u. dun think tat ur not a good lover. ur !!! n have always been... i enjoyed our first date tgth, the time we spent in wilson house and the path where we cycled along on. these will nvr be earse from my memory! maybe i shd say tat u have taught me how to love a person rather then just plainly care as i thought initially. i will always value 081107 and of cause sdasb....haha!