sky is cloudy so is my feelings now. been missing angel alot. attachment have finally come to the end. awaiting for the next posting with more challenging cases! time has been passing by, been thinking alot too. thinking about y im so blind to treat angel tat badly in the past. angel was so nice to me, brought food for me all the way up to my unit, to ensure tat my tummy is filled up, share my burdens with, always there when i needed ppl to throw my unhappiness with. now as angel is getting busier, im missing angel even more. these few months wasnt easy. we had ups n downs but fortunately, we survived. i really hate myself to hate you! but to love myself to love u even more each day. been wanting for the day to share yr burdens with and been wanting for the day to let u rest in my arms giving you my warm again. i understand ur also stress from work tho u didnt talk much abt it, but i can sense tat ur tired from work. but i really hope to just take a look at u, smile back to myself when i know tat ur doing fine. 'THANK YOU' 'SORRIE' have been the 2 words which i always wanted to say and express it out to u. thank you for knowing an angel like u n sorrie for all the problems tat i had gave to u. im deeply disappointed for not seeing the beauty in you in the past, therefore, i didnt really treated u well enuff. these few days, without noticing it i kept traveling past the places tat we have been to. it recalled back alot memories of u. the fun tat we had at that spot, the arguments we fought about with, the romance tat we had. it somehow mades me smile n tear whenever it came across into my mind.

each time, when i received a msg tat is from u, i will always have this special feelings tat i nvr had before, a feeling tat only will have it when yr name came into my mind. reading the msges tat u had send me, really mades my day. im proud of myself to have u as my soul partner, n even more proud of u for wat u have done to friends ard u. yr care n concern, yr helpfulness to ppl. angel if ur reading this, im really sorrie for wat i have done in the past, n have neglected yr feelings. im terribly missing u angel!... yr engaging smile can never fail to stop loving u. for all the good times tat we had together, I love u angel, till the day tat we both break down!...

haha!!!! had a good catch up session ytd with dodes! went to Starbucks as well. mass on house! thanks ya! had a really long n sincere chat with them bitch ard, took lots n lots of pics from mass's mac book, laugh like nobody business, chated like almost everything under the moon esp when we r over at the ice cream place where i brought them to n told them is a frying kind of ice-cream place. i guess they thought was really frying on the stove with oil lor! lol.... really had pour out our problems! i guess after much of the chat, we became much more closer n much more brother-loveD ya! cheers! well... ytd actually wanted to eat dinner with angel but then didnt know tat was having dinner with friends instead. waited for till like 10pm still have no reply from angel n also late alrea. so decided just return home, bath n sleep lor. kind of like emo lar! cause didnt get a chance to meet ma. somemore only have a pathetic sunday to meet. is like if dun meet, have to wait for another week le. but is still okie la! as we have met up on sat, sun n monday alrea lor. guess ytd was brought forward le lar! am contented le lor!:) haha.. still rmber clearly tat angel olso said tat need time for friends n family as well... so ya! it made sense too lar!

tonight will be our 3 week of night shift! so freaking tired la! literally dragging myself to work each day. hope theres exciting calls today not just dispute n nuisance calls! wish me luck man...

am so bored with attachment! so sleepy everyday it has been 2 weeks, n yet i cant get to see resus!..haha i know i sound abit wrong but then rest of my mates have seen delivery, done resus, n witness death. the only large amt of blood i seen so far is actually from the hypocount lor! oh.. n i have TRIED setting plug too! but is unsuccessful. i think im dumb lor.. focus on the arm which the veins is like so tiny n unclear to see. then my mentor took over n set over on the other arm. then the best part was, I PULLED OUT THE NEEDLE BEFORE RELEASE THE TONI! then the blood flow out like nobody business. i was so panicked!well... my skin also started to peel alre.. haha... look like some brown-colour snake lor! so unglam. tml gonna start my night shift again! so bored lor... worked for like amost everyday! cheapo labour!!! after next week, gonna be my HOLIDAY!... so looking forward for it. tho is holiday, but i still have to study for exams can! so idiot lor!!! cant even enjoy with peace.

TOUCH MY BODY!!!....

ytd went to cycle ard the connectors at the east of sg. cycle from like east coast park to bedok, tamp, paris ris then to changi n back to ecp. no joke man...was estimated by my expert tat it is about 42 km lar..had first degree burn too..lol! but then after the ride, i felt bad lar. cause actually we have to pay for the rental fee of 50 dollar extra. but then when we finish our ride, the ppl over there didnt ask from us. dun know if he heard me asking ' how much is it' then he stopped us n check the recepit again n ask the money from us. blame my ass-mouth lar.. sorrie... guess it wasnt my day ytd. was alittle grumpy too.


then after tat, had our dinner n rush back to change for my night shfit. it was terrible lar, as i can feel my leg forcing to leave my upper body.. it is damn aching. but... guess wat, i think i have silm down more toned perhaps!haha... got the nice burnt colour too with singlet shape. didnt had much calls, still am waiting for calls!!! erm... my mentor she is good lar.. like phyllis tan! the way they talk the same lor! haha...

alright... have been in an ambulance for a week... phew!!! wat a week!! but i guess im quite alright with the posting so far. ppl in clementi r nice, ppl who r supporting me like mass/smiley r nice too... miss u ppl lots:)ohz.. not forgetting angel! who came down to fetch me...'hugs'

so for my days shift, i was attached to this paramedic la.. she is damn nice lor. she like can understand how tough course is n keep asking me if i m feeling tired or need a rest, can go to the room n sleep dun have to follow them out. nice right? haha but can tell she is a good pm too. for example, when on the way to attend to the call, she will like prepare us, who to do wat. she is so damn welfare lar.. mostly r medical cases la! heard my friend alrea seen delivery lar! shiock lar!! wonder how am i suppose to survive within these few months of attachment? isl ike damn freaking tired lar after e 2nd day. how i wish there is public holiday for us! damn the school lor/ whoever who set the attachment hours!

haha... spot me if u can!!!

harlow... just woke up. well, ytd was quite a happening night i shd say:) when i arrive at the station, the 1 n only aphla had just left. so i was like talking to this NSF man who kind of like orientated me in the station. but soon after half an hour or so, they came back. 3 machos men! the man version of POWERPUFF GIRL!!! haha... anyw, they r sgt,cpl,pvt. so the pvt who is a NSF man too took me to the alpha n show me the onset of the items kept in it. n i was like...OMG! didnt know tat it was so big like a mini size cargo! and inside is so nice can!!haha

then the time arrival!!! dong.dong..dong... my first case was actually a hypo case went to pt's house, took vital signs n is very clear cut that is a hypo case la. so wat we did was to gave her heavyly sugar-ed H2o n send her to the hotel. N TATS NOT TAT END....OMG! my cases is like getting worsen each time. soon another call came in is a traffic accident case n the traffic light was being knocked down. sound seriously hor? nah... is just another typical singaporean UNCLE with his big beer belly drunk. is so damn funny la... when we arrived, i was expecting like pt lying on the road n half dead kind! but he was like sitting alone the road repairing his pick-up and have alcoholic breath as he speak. went back slept for awhile then the alarm came in again..

this time round is no joke man(i thought)... it is a over-turned truck. the scene was horrifying, with police n SCDF ppl ard it. the pt was found standing n chatting on phone with his truck lying side way on his right!OMG... he was just suffering from superficial cuts n nothing else. wonder how he esp??? so my night continues untill in the early morning, case of fainting. gonna eat n sleep again... haha!!! tata...

hey folks... im now using my free time to BLOG!...lalala... well, tonight will be my battle btwn fighting for sleep in CLEMNTI fire staiton. Yeap!... im posted to clementi. do drop by for a cup of coffee ya?lol...

be posting more of the updates soon yeah!... see ya guys:)